Introducing..

I wish I could see Jesse more than once or twice a week. When we were dating, I saw him every day. Now, every Monday we have 'Buffy night', and sometimes I see him another day within that week. The man lives five minutes away though! I miss him. But don't get me wrong, I am definitely coping. We've been 'just friends' for over two months now. It's getting easier. I'm getting stronger.

Anyway! I brought Mackenzie (my nephew/brother) to school today. He had a day off, but both my parents were working so I took him along. I always forget how shy he is, until I bring him somewhere with 'strangers'. I'm used to him yelling unnecessarily and jumping around. Today, he was just quiet and polite. It's strange how one person can be entirely different when they're around different people. I like consistency. Like, knowing who you are and not bending to fit the people around you. I'm not implying Mackenzie was conforming, not at all. He's just shy. If he'd been conforming he'd have been loud as usual. I mean like, some people lie with their behaviour. You know those people who are just a different person when you put them in a different group of people? The people that probably don't know themselves at all. If you put them at summer camp, they might appear wise and mature. Then you take that same person and put them at a high school party. You might expect them to be wise again, and mature, but no. They'll get too hammered to articulate the simplest things. I'm having trouble using words to get my point across. I guess I mean, people need to stop trying to fit in or impress the people around them. So many people do it without realizing. If everyone could be their own person, or even know who they really are..